About me
Cedric Price's quote couldn't summarise my life any better. What is my very personal question? How do I deal with my creativity, my desire to leave something behind, my mental illness? What are the issues within society that concern me and what does IRC have to do with it? I was at a party recently and someone introduced me to someone. This guy already knew me from hearsay and said people would say I was a freak... in a good way, he added. I could get stuck into topics and process them ad infinitum, realise them artistically and deal with them intensively. And still be a bit weird about it. I'm a freak, a female nerd, with many interests and passions. But above all, I haven't managed to do my laundry or tidy my room for weeks and am currently working on my disastrous sleeping patterns. I would like to try a mixture of diary and topic collection on this page. It's good for me to write regularly, about the world and myself, because there's a lot to write about.
my banjo
I've been playing banjo for a few years now and trying to write folk punk songs regularly, moderately successfully. Somehow the banjo community is pretty old and pretty right wing, which is really annoying, but it just sounds to me like wind blowing through trees on a hot summer day. It's exactly the instrument I want to play
my brush
I paint watercolour paintings in large format. Actually, I've been painting mainly watercolour since I was a child. It's quite easy to make watercolour paintings look like something and incredibly difficult at the same time. What do I like about the medium? - It's quick. In no time at all you have something in your hands, something has been created, has been brought into the world. Without waiting for ages in front of an easel, you can express yourself and all you need is a brief moment for the water to escape from the paper.
my computer
Where should I start? Everything I do has something to do with technology. I didn't have my own computer until very late in life. I've only been really involved with computers for 8 years. I'm not particularly good. I do use Linux systems (especially arch linux) but I still have a long way to go before I can say that I can use them properly, secure them and do exactly what I want with them. I don't understand a lot of things, but I want to understand them.
my rice cooker
My rice cooker represents my desire to take better care of myself. I actually want to, but then something always gets in the way: news of an act of sabotage somewhere in the world, a company takeover, an inexplicable accident, something that draws my attention away from my daily tasks. The next rabbit hole is sure to come. I've had schizophrenia for five years and am trying to cope with it somehow.